I took this photo in one of the caves we visited with my parents back in 2002. Somewhere near Wuxi. It caught my then and it sums up how I feel these days. When one is burnt out, it's got to be left alone, to walk the lonely lane. But now that I'm married, the dynamics are a bit different. I can't just clam up and sit in one corner ... I need to love Ruth as well. It's not an easy balance ... between needing space and wanting to show love.