a tough day

The stresses of work continues to weigh me down with guilt. i wish i've got more time with my wife, friends, and colleagues. in my conversations with them, i know they wish i can slow down, have more time with them, listen to what they have to say. in my marriage so far, Ruth has taught me much about the value of taking time to listen. so it's a real struggle, between focusing on the task or focusing on the people. i know i much prefer the latter, but the former is just so pressing. or so it seems.

i just saw Dr Ravi again for my sleeping problems. it was a short consultation. $100. i told him i couldn't keep up with the costs. he said he'd refer me to another specialist at SGH next month. he asked me to remove my tonsils. they are just too huge he says.

i then had some time to either rush back to office or work from home before meeting with the rest of the 20fc mates. i decided to stay, hence the time to sit here at star bucks to send a remote blog, to think amd reflect. i'm glad i did. i took some time to browse thru the magazine stand. read up more about the latest digital cam offerings. took my mind off work. it's good. to sit in a cafe and watch life go by a little and see how others get on with their lives.

yes, truly, how we lose ourselves in our work. we forget what life means. socrates said an unexamined life is not worth living. how worthless our lives become when we lose sight of life itself.

i received an email encouragement from my colleagues. it was very nice. made me feel warm. it's nice to be told one is appreciated. i should do more of that.

ok. back to my padaeia program book and people watching. :-)

signing off at the paragon.